Accept and Lead- Thats what life is all about :-)

It feels so amazing to think back on all those things which we tend to ignore most of the time. We crib and feel bad when something goes wrong in our life and get so excited if something good happens. We fail to understand that whatever happen has to happen and there is a reason behind this. The sooner we accept this the more happier we can be.

I have started accepting optimistically everything that comes my way these days. I don't waste my time thinking about the consequence that may or may not happen later. I am in love with my life. I don't wait for big things to happen but grab every small things that is on my way.

People take ages to change their perspective, some change and some find it really hard. I was the one who always loved to explore and understand myself and do anything that leads to my better future. But at the same time in some corner of my heart I was always trapped in doubt, confusion, I was the one who could never make any decisions. But today I can say all this has changed, my soul is so light and relaxed. This could have never been possible had I not changed my outlook and my perspective about my life but yes at the same time had I not allowed those things to happen which was written in my destiny. I accepted good and bad things that came my way as I said earlier I had no control over those but I definitely have control over my life......

Cheers,

Rosna

For better.....

Lost in my own world I think of no one, I am so busy yet so free to act upon………..
I look around and this silence is killing me, how can people act? Don’t they get tired…? I can see they want something else… they too want to fly and get released but they can’t do it in reality.
They have to pretend if they need to live.

We live and work for what? For the joy or for nothing…. Such confusion yes I have in my mind.. Still I go on and on… I feel bad for some things in my life that I know I miss but which may be or may not be in my hands.

I think and re-think and then for a second I find an answer but then again nothing comes to my hand.. Its pain its funny such a mixed emotion.

I laugh when I think how I reacted a day back and how I am today. Every moment is a learning experience.
I know things will change and it is changing every second, it will no longer be the same, I will see new things in life, I will face pain and trouble and I will meet different people but down the memory lane I will have all the treasure of this world in my heart and mind.

I will feel pain when I will think about it when I will go back but there will be no option left, I can only rejoice the time I had spend as it was a part of me, my life within me. I try to pretend but then I fail I feel a pain when I know I am not made for this, I have something for myself for my own.
I am what I am but between this two I am someone who loves to smile a lot, run and touch the sky, make people happy, catch butterflies, smell the flowers, sing songs, dance in the rain….. So much to explore and live that child within me but with time I have to leave all this with me inside me… I will not be able to express my things my feelings with myself I have to be quiet…. I have to see and smile but it will be hard to unexplore all those moments that will make me what I am rather then what I am forced to do.

Is it really so difficult to do things of your choice? Is it too much that I have asked for…. I really don’t know. May be I am thinking too much, may be all the people in this world don’t think the way I do…. I may have to change or to live my dream there is no third option...

There is so much to know and all say we have time for all but do we really have time?? Can anyone predict, NO?
How do I know all this, the answer to the questions of those things which I am not clear about?
Everything and everyone changes for good and better, it’s the fact of life which we cannot challenge and it has to happen today or tomorrow. I talk with people know about their feelings some told some hidden and realize all go through the same but some concentrate on the things that will not lead them anywhere, but I know I can do nothing about it.

I am so happy for a time and so sad the very moment for no reason.. Can I capture those moments and play it back when I have tears in my eyes, Is this possible? Life is so complicated and so is we human beings. I want to express my feelings most of the time and on the other hand I tend to suppress everything. I know I will be happy if I let my feelings grow. Then why do I think about people who may or may not be with me when I need them the most, I tend to waste my time thinking about this?

Can I change for better for me and myself? Yes I can do and I have to do

Confusion in my mind...........

It was the same day; as usual… nothing new happened. Same routine of tasks to be done, and then nothing more to think about. In between all this some thoughts came to my mind don’t know what it was all about but it was definitely a mixed feeling, a kind of cool breeze touching my heart and soul.

Then for a while I could not understand what was this about.. I was happy for a moment and then sad… The whole time I was thinking about this, till I was lost in my memory land.

I started talking with myself questioning and answering again and again for the reason that was so strange. I got no answer and knew I was lost once again.

Every time I face this I have no reason to find out why it happens? What I need to understand from this? It seems so strange to me , time is passing by and I know I am growing old too but still I am with my dreams. Is this really a dream? I ask myself …..

May be; may not be I am not sure about this. It feels nice when I feel so confident about the things I want in my life a sudden spark touches the inner core of my heart. A strong determination to fight and survive in this whole world. A new change, a new beginning.

Why it that sometime I feel like flying so high and I know at that moment I can really touch the sky and the very next moment I feel I have lost the battle. Struggling to understand this mystery of my life I traveled in my heart, when I found no answer I decided to just keep quiet. Some where down the line it was hurting me a lot, I was in pain…. I was not happy from within as I knew a lot was missing.

I failed to understand is this called the human life? Full of surprises at every step…..?

Silently walking the road I see so many faces around and then back to my thoughts to understand the reality of mankind. I knew very well I will not succeed and will not get any answer. I knew the problem was in my mind. I was not aware what I was looking for, then how can I expect for a valid answer to solve my thunder inside.

Best Time

It seems just yesterday when I had no worries for tomorrow, no rules to follow, no one to answer for? I was the queen of my life........
Today every morning when I wake up I have a worry for tomorrow, so much have changed. I have to do things that I may not enjoy, but I am forced to. There is reality on the side and dreams on the other hand. But I guess this is life?
But the most beautiful thing is my memories of yesterday, it makes me cry and laugh like a fool, it makes me smile and talk silently with myself. I feel it was just yesterday but No; time has passed by. The only thing that never can change is memories, it will forever be with me fresh in my heart to give me courage to live and prepare for tomorrow.

What we dont understand......

As a kid we have always been asked.... whats your favorite co lour? My answer had always been ALL as I believe One colour cannot make this world look beautiful, we need all shades to make this universe ...

Our life is same we need to go through all the emotions in this world to make what we are... pain, tears, joy, sorrow, laughter, shock, embarrassment etc.... all are important

We hate when we go through negative emotions and thats natural but that was what was written for us and no one could stop this but we need to be so strong that we can overcome this with a smile.. Its not easy and it takes time and lot of emotional understanding to realize that nothing more can be changed now but we can still work for future.

What we dont understand is that this life is a stage and we all are performers... we need to make the best use of this.

Cheers,
Rosna

TIME

Time is the question when something goes wrong in our life and time is the only answer when we know everything is all right...

With time everything changes, the way we think the way we feel...

As a child I always believed in dreaming and till today i do the same, it gives me the power to survive. But as we grow we question our self when we dream but things dont seem to be right.

Time is the best remedy and we should not give up easily on what we believe from so long.

It gives an immense pleasure to see and feel how life was some years back and how we stand today standing, surviving and fighting for what we are today....

The only fact is that Life will go on and time will never stop... Yesterday was history and tomorrow is mystery but what we have is today.. either you live up or give up.... Choice is with you.

Cheers,
Rosna